Made over the course of the quarantine in the spring of 2020, Panteha Abareshi's I Am Inside the Body documents the artist’s own personal grief and processing of the shifting context of their sick/disabled body in the wake of a global health pandemic. Suspended in a limbo of isolation unregulated by the timelines followed by the able-bodied population, Abareshi turned to a practice of emotional documentation through the form of daily writings, and the contemplation of the diagram as a product of the innate human need to quantify and represent the unknown.
I Am Inside the Body contains diagrams of theoretical scientific and mathematical concepts, that Abareshi drew daily from memory, accompanied by daily writings. It is a highly personal collection—the dissemination of a private journal. The pages reveal a vulnerable processing of one’s cyclical acknowledgment of their inability, deterioration, and pain, and the systems we create to organize our thoughts and emotions in the most precarious times.